tristanpaulus (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} tristanpaulus) wrote,@ 2009-09-01 17:09:00 |
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Question
Mark texted me today saying "I finally got what I've wanted for five years....an apology".
To explain the back story, Mark's first boyfriend's name was (is) Tim. They dated for a year, and a couple days after taking Mark's virginity, Tim cheated on him with some other guy. Well Mark has despised Tim since then and usually refers to him as "The Asshole". Tim seems to still want Mark, however, and even though he's had other boyfriends since, he's always attempted to flirt with Mark given half a chance. Recently Tim told Mark that his boyfriend cheated on him, and he now understands more how it feels.
Today, Tim asked Mark to have lunch with him and finally, five years later, apologized to Mark for all the pain he put Mark through.
Now here we come to the part where I am seeking your input:
Mark updated his Facebook status saying "funny how after all the pain you've caused how my heart still skips a beat when I hear your voice". Now Mark admitted when I asked him years ago that he sometimes wished he and Tim had never broken up, but that way he wouldn't know the things he'd have missed out on (this was accompanied by a meaningful look at me).
Am I overly paranoid for past episodes, or should I be concerned? Is it completely natural for Tim to always, in spite of everything, have a special place in some corner of Mark's heart simply by virtue of being his first boyfriend, first sex partner, first person Mark felt he was completely in love with, etc.?
Mark texted me today saying "I finally got what I've wanted for five years....an apology".
To explain the back story, Mark's first boyfriend's name was (is) Tim. They dated for a year, and a couple days after taking Mark's virginity, Tim cheated on him with some other guy. Well Mark has despised Tim since then and usually refers to him as "The Asshole". Tim seems to still want Mark, however, and even though he's had other boyfriends since, he's always attempted to flirt with Mark given half a chance. Recently Tim told Mark that his boyfriend cheated on him, and he now understands more how it feels.
Today, Tim asked Mark to have lunch with him and finally, five years later, apologized to Mark for all the pain he put Mark through.
Now here we come to the part where I am seeking your input:
Mark updated his Facebook status saying "funny how after all the pain you've caused how my heart still skips a beat when I hear your voice". Now Mark admitted when I asked him years ago that he sometimes wished he and Tim had never broken up, but that way he wouldn't know the things he'd have missed out on (this was accompanied by a meaningful look at me).
Am I overly paranoid for past episodes, or should I be concerned? Is it completely natural for Tim to always, in spite of everything, have a special place in some corner of Mark's heart simply by virtue of being his first boyfriend, first sex partner, first person Mark felt he was completely in love with, etc.?
